Hmm what to title this...

Well here i am again in digital photography... only now i am doing something interesting! I have to do this poem thing where you write part of a poem on something non permanent. I decided to do lyric's instead, i mean to me that is poetry! i combined four MCR songs to make my own poem in a way... this is how it turned out....

This night, walk the dead
And when the lights all went outWe watched our lives on the screenI hate the ending myself,But it started with an alright sceneYou never fell in loveDid you get what you deserve?
Love is the red of the rose on your coffin doorWhat's life like, bleeding on the floor,
Did you get what you deserve?
The ending of your lifeAnd if you get to Heaven
I won't stop dying, won't stop lying.

Disenchanted, Cemetery Gates, Thanks For the Venom, Dead!

That is my poem, now i just need to find a place to write them, i am thinking of taking a trip to the cemetery across the street and writting it somewhere there, but i have no idea where it is not permanent.... that is what i need to figure out, so im not vandalizing private property... im thinking of asking some people for idea's... that might go over the best... i mean i know sierra will help me do what ever i need to... but i need to figure out what that is... anyone got some idea's? let me know immediately! Thanks Muchly!

I need therapy for this mixed up shit...

this is really horrible... i like this guy and he keeps hinting at liking but then nothing... it is really getting frustrating trying to pry through these mixed signals... but i really like him so it makes me want to keep trying to sift through them. there is more to the story than you know but i keep that private... i don't know what it is about him, but he intrigues me more than any other guy i have met... i can actually have and intelligent conversation with him and not have to wonder if he is actually getting what i am saying. That to me is a big plus in my book, plus must be able to make me laugh... if you can't laugh at yourself and have a good time then its a no no! but i don't know what to do, hopefully it will be revealed to me in the near future!

Have You Heard The News That Your Dead?

This is a very appropriate title to how i am feeling right now... Life pretty much sucks and i don't know what to do... i now no longer have a date to prom and that depresses me to no end... it makes me not even want to go but i got my friends to go so i have to go and i understand that now... but it doesn't make going alone any less depressing to me. i have a gorgeous dress which makes me feel like a princess but no prince to go with it... so much for that fairy tail dream of what senior prom is supposed to be like... where is Gerard when you need him as a prom date *Sigh* I have no meaning in life any more for the moment... i knew it needed to be done however and that things will get better... i just wish they would get better sooner rather than later... my only hopes are that someone is out there for me and can make everything better... im not trying to make this a sob story but this is my blog and if you don't like what i write then you don't have to read right? Patience is a virtue they say, but don't people get more of what they want when they are more viable to get what they want. i just want a date to prom anyone interested?
Wouldn't it be grand to take a pistol by the hand and wouldn't it be great if we were dead.... if life ain't just a joke then why are we laughing? If life ain't just a joke then why am i dead?

Im Just the WAY that the doctor made me!

haha! i love that song to death... it means a lot to me... actually all of their songs do! they really help me when i truely need them... like this morning when Sierra was being a bizotch....I crank them up and calm the fuck down! I can't believe how people can be so dense and selfish.... I mean i know im no where near perfect and i don't claim to be but at least i try! i don't get all pissy when someone is trying to help me! im sorry if you are fucking PMSing but don't take it out on me!!!!!!! well i don't have time to write more so i will write later! GRRRRRRRRRRRRR....... I LOVE YOU GERARD!

I JUST LOST THE GAME

WOULDN'T YOU KNOW IT I JUST LOST THE GAME AND GUESS WHAT NOW SO DID YOU!!!! XD

*Sigh*

I couldn't think of a title.... what fits more with boredom than *sigh*.... last night was awesome but weird after work... interesting conversations ensued... it made me nervous so i giggled alot which is a surefire indicator that i am nervous... sierra was looking at me like i was crazy....but i am only a little insane and that isn't a bad thing...i think.....i don't know anymore.... im glad that Da Midger is back today cause i really missed her yesterday... but that stupid bitch sub wouldn't let her sit next to me like Mrs. Miller always lets us.... I love Hamlet but she was not making it enjoyable at all and it makes me want to punch her... i mean i know she is an old crotchity lady who is probally unhappy in life but she doesn't have to take it out on us.... I am currently listening to Sixx A.M. which is a good band with Nikki Sixx from Motley Crew another good band... I am the lead singer in a band named Lfe B4 Dth! i love the name cause to me it stands as Life is the period before death! which is the truth you have to live before you can die...

Photo-Boring

Im in photography right now and i finished my lesson early for once but the consiquence to that is i have extra time to do absolutely nothing which sucks @$$..... i have been writting in my book with my story in choir cause they were having musical rehearsal so we couldn't do anything of interest... i guess i could write more in that but i have already written two pages today which is alot for me and i don't want to get writer's block later on... but i guess while i have the thoughts i should use them to my advantage... at least i have the pod to keep me company XD or should i say MCR cause that is what i am listening to right now but that makes sense to anyone who knows me lmao! You know what they do to guys like us in prison is playing in my ears and giving me creative idea's on what to write... but they always give me my creative emphasis... AHHHHHHHHH Gerard just did his giggle and that always gets me... i could be sad as hell ready to die of boredom and when i hear that giggle i can't help but giggle... and it was a complete accident that it is on there... cause i have heard live versions and it is missing and it makes me cry! i guess it is time for me to start thinking about what is going to be my lyric's of the day today... i think it might be from Vampire's Will Never Hurt you but i cannot be positive until i get that feeling... everyday i get one about a song that i listen to and that becomes the song of the day... Lately i have been obsessed with Merci Pour Le Venin or Thanks For The Venom... i want that tattoo somewhere on my body and i am thinking on my wrist cause that would make the most sense to me... i mean that song and the saying mean alot of different things to me... shit that has happened in my life but things that have ultimately made me a stronger person.... well that is enough for today :)

Batteries Suck

I am so bored.... i need to charge the batteries on my camera so i can actually do my photography assignment.... all of the school camera's are checked out and i really need to get a start on this... oh what to do.... this is a dilema.... oh but i will figure it out i suppose.... last night was insane when i went with sierra to her uncles so she could cut his hair... but later was what made me laugh so hard... when i got home i talked to Mike, Steph, and someone new Jake... i like making new friends even though i am shy... you can always get new friends and making new friends makes me smile! XD lmao i need to try and get unshy... that is why i took my job at DG to meet and be forced to talk to new people...

Four Strong

Wow maybe that will be the new thing... turning blogging into a new twitter? this is my fourth update/blog and i am really enjoying this more then i thought i would lmao! i love listening to RENT... as if you can't tell i am on kind of a musical tangent... why? no one really knows sometimes you just get that mood where that is what you got to listen to.... Right now its RENT later who knows? maybe i will look up some avenue Q stuff... for those of you reading you are probally thinking man this chick is weird... she loves musicals and MCR... well yes i do and i know i am weird and i choose to embrace my weirdness for all to see :D... if you don't like who i am then forget you, who needs you anyway :D well that's all except DAVEY COULDN'T PWN GERARD IF HE HAD A PWNING MACHINE!!!!!!

Sweet Transvestite

Oh man i love that movie! i am listening to the soundtrack right now! but in other news, i just checked out my twitter and i swear MCR has the most epic conversations and Mikey Way just fuels the shit making it more epic! So he is nominated as my epic person of the Month! if anyone wants to dispute this send all complants to I_DONT_CARE@yahoo.com XD so that is my epic rant for the moment!

MY CHEM

well here i am again... i am bored so i thought i would make another post... now i know that this is not like twitter where you update it lots and lots but i can do this blog anyway i want :D!!! so the topic of this blog is My Chemical Romance... they are probally the best band that there is! Their music is smartly done and have life saving and inspiring lyrics that touch the hearts of many. I know they inspire me to keep going no matter how hard things are... As Frank Iero says they are a band that really wants to save your life... and that is what they do! So if you are looking for something interesting to listen to or it feels like you need a friend try listening to one of their albums> I brought you bullets, you brought me your love., Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge, or The Black Parade. They have a new album coming out sometime this year! They also did a Bob Dylan cover of Desolation Row for the Watchmen movie and soundtrack. It was one of their best by far and the video is entertaining and fullfilling! CHECK IT OUT!!!!

Newness

Well here i am... i guess i am starting a blog.... i have no idea how to blog but i am going to try my hand at it.... Actually i am being forced by one of my best friends and bandmate! We are in a band named LfeB4Dth and i hope it gets far! :) i am the lead singer which scares me a little bit but i will get over it... I mean come on if Gerard Way can get over being shy and having doubts about his voice then i can... i mean he is only my IDOL!!!! if it wasn't weird i would start a religon completely devoted to him... but that is way too weird and stalkerish! and i am not crazy... maybe a little insane but who isn't these dayz? That is another thing about me i am a completely devoted My Chemical Romance fan... i will probally rant about that from now and then.... Two more things before i close this.... 1. GERARD PWNS DAVEY HAVOK FOREVER.... and 2. I JUST LOST THE GAME!