Well i think im gonna burn in hell....

Well, what can i actually say... i guess im not good enough for him, i mean is it so much to ask for a guy to like a girl? i mean seriously, what is wrong with me to make me that unappealing? i know i will get smacked for this, but i feel it is a very valid question for me to ask myself... i have been trying to move on and forget about it, but life is making that very hard. i don't fall often but when i do it takes forever for me to move on from something like that! so i hope he is happy... even though he has no idea how i feel about him, and probally never will. but thats ok i will get over it eventually, i mean tons of people die alone! i know i am so getting smacked for this but i feel like i need to get my bad feelings out somehow and this seemed like a logical way to do it. i am going to try and keep my head up, that maybe i am just exaggerating although part of my brain is bringing that thought to an early grave! so what do i do... just like Sky and i discussed the other day, you need to search to find what you want... oh well i guess i am doomed to an everlasting search for nothing.....