My Cellmates are Killer's they Make me Do Push-Ups in Drag O_o

Well, that made my day a little better lol... i just heard Gerard giggle at the end of You Know What They Do To Guys Like Us In Prison. So i finally get up the courage to ask the guy that i wanted to go to prom with to the prom, but i was turned down. I mean he did it so nicely, but i am so confused with everything right now... i guess i will just have to let it play out. I mean i wish i could tell him how i really feel but i don't want to get rejected again... i mean what is wrong with me... i mean i think im pretty cool, i just don't see what is wrong... i guess that is one of the age old questions that people have.

It's ironic that that song would be the next one.. I'm Not Okay (I promise) that must be my theme song to life... I am currently in ceramic's class and i should be making my MCR chibi's but i am too blah to do that, and steph has my fan fiction so i can't work on that... i feel like crap, is there something i should do... should i not have said something about going just as friends, did i ruin this myself... maybe steph was right i shouldn't have been trying i should just let things come to me. I am out of idea's of what to do anymore, but it seems like everytime i do something to try and make myself happy it fails. I think that must mean i fail at life.... ( I know i will hear about saying that later) but still i think that is what it must mean. Now how to win the game of life.... DAMN IT! i just lost the game (and so did you!)

I just really like the fact that i can have an intelligent conversation with him... that is one thing that i need in a guy. (Intellectualism, Sense of Humor, Honesty, Musically Inclined (has to like music), all personality traits) I mean looks aren't important to me, what is on the inside is what is important to me. (well, ok i'll be honest i would like for the guy to be as tall or taller than me... no boob lookers) it just looks weird... well i am going to head back to class for the last 5 minutes... then to film then home! i can't wait to dive into bed and stay there until i die...